The Conversation begins.
(HER)
January 29, 2010
John,
I want to thank you for having this website, [if] I interpreted your writings on homosexuals as genuine. I have long felt hated and abused by Christians and have grown to resent them in some ways because of their constant admonitions, however through your words and seeming willingness to allow me to own my orientation while you own your valid opinion, both of us without judgment, I am feeling some healing and connection in regards to Jesus and Christians. Thank you again!
(HER)
February 15, 2010
Hi Johnny,
My name is _______ and several weeks ago I found and responded to your post on the above topic and have been checking almost daily for your comment. I can hold my breath no more! I am so interested in your feedback.
Thanks
(ME)
Feb 15, 2010
Hello,
I am so glad that you wrote me.
The subject of homosexuality is such a sensitive one that it is difficult to talk about without someone becoming too impassioned. I had the unique situation of spending lots of time with homosexual males when I was a child, because my mother had to take my brothers and me to work with her during the summer, where a lot of gay men worked.
I believe that experience caused me to be much less homophobic than I may have been otherwise.
The fact that I struggle with my own sinful propensities makes me no less a sinner than a racist or a rapist, and I try to remain humble in my opinion of the sins of others. With that said, I also believe that propensities make us subject to specific sins, but they are sins none-the-less.
Some of us deal with more debilitating sins, some with more socially repulsive sins, and others with somewhat acceptable sins. It is up to the individual to discover God’s view of how we handle our unique sinful desires. But I don’t believe that it is my role to right the wrongs, only to help those (who want help) to recognize their sins and how God views them, according to my best understanding [of the Bible’s teachings] (with the help of scholars) of what a sin actually is.
Do I believe homosexual acts are sin? Yes, I do. But I don’t believe that my belief means that those who suffer or enjoy that sin should be ostracized by the Church. I believe that we all deal with our own sinfulness and must come to a place of repentance at some point, no matter how painful it is to give up [that which we discover to be] acceptable, enjoyable, and normal to ourselves, but sinful to God.
Some from all sides will argue with me, I’m sure, because as much as we know of God’s opinion of sin, we will only know according to our very limited view of His will.
Please don’t think I am judging you. That is God’s role, just as it is His role to judge me.
May God richly bless you as you continue to search and discover the grace of God.
In His dust,
Johnny
(HER)
February 16, 2010
Quite to the contrary to feeling judged by you, I feel like a child of God and accepted by you because you view me as a child of God, someone worthy of building my own relationship with Him and able to exercise my rights as a human being to free choice, while at the same time rowing in this boat of life with another brother. Live and let live…
Thank you for that.
(HER)
February 16, 2010
Hi again, John,
I am curious to know if you had a chance to read my response to the dialogue that was occurring last June or July?
(ME)
February 16, 2010
I’m not sure which article you responded to. Could you tell me the title, and I will be able to go right to it?
Thanks.
Johnny
(HER)
February 16, 2010
The article was ‘Acting Like Animals.’ Let me know what you think.
The comment:
January 29th, 2010 at 11:31 am e
I am in Sociology 101, and at the time of this writing, I have told 2 friends that next week’s assignment is to come dressed to give an oral presentation on a subculture that I am a part of. The 1st said (paraphrasing). “Be a lesbian, wear your rainbow earrings and necklace.” The 2nd said (paraphrasing) “Wow, that’s a hard one.” I told her no, I’m going as a lesbian. She said “No, that’s too easy for you. Maybe you can go as a football mom?” My mouth dropped (she may not agree with homosexuality, but she loves me regardless (live and let live). I was momentarily taken aback at her suggestion that presenting the subculture of football mom was somehow more challenging or less valid than presenting the LGBT subculture, because just as I am a lesbian (making the presentation too easy, in her opinion), I am also a football mom, a great football mom. In fact (unintended and personally unperceived homophobia?), I feed my boys, all 37 of them (the entire frosh f-ball team). My friend and I cheer for them when they are running down the field with the ball or when we hear the ‘thinking’ sound their helmets and pads make as the players slam against each other in a tackle.
At the end of a winning game we take pictures, provide a tailgate party and a lot of ‘you rock!’ ‘Great job!’ comments. At the end of a losing game, we offered comfort with just a “Hey man, you looked good out there, you played hard”, then quietly and without words, we feed them. I have carpooled these boys to weights at 6:30 in the morning-rain, shine, now and dense fog-3 days a week for the entire calendar year including summer vacation and all the breaks. I have driven hundreds of miles (through Phoenix (a place I go to get lost and confused) so as to offer support for these boys. I also get to experience the ‘joy’ of intense fundraising, enabling the program to be free to the players.
As a football mom, I am well taken care of by the boys and their parents (who all know I am gay and most are Christian) in the form of trust, appreciation and acceptance. I am RESPECTED because of what I do for the boys and the parents who can’t be there for their boys. I do what I do as a football mom because of who I intrinsically am, and non of who I am changes when someone (even myself) becomes aware of my orientation. In other words, my value and content remain the same. My second friend was wrong, as it would be far easier (and socially acceptable) to present the subculture of football mom -v- LGBT. However, it is the members of the LGBT community that desperately need a voice and exposure, so as to encourage desensitization of those who somehow find it socially and religously acceptable to engage in bigotry and abuse of homosexuals, resulting in the destruction not of their beliefs, but of the (generalizing) unjust sense of entitlement they have to judge, then condemn LGBT to reduced civil and human rights.
Homophobia, to whatever degree a person suffers, is born of religion and passed down from religious leaders and their followers without always being fully thought through (ignorance). That ignorance perpetuates homophobia and the resulting indignant, arrogant, social, civil and human injustices imposed upon other human beings (LGBT), and they feel justified and entitled to do so based mostly on religion. I am specifically addressing Christians here, because although there are a few references in the old and new (through Paul, not Jesus) that can be interpreted as admonishing homosexuality, what is FAR TOO often ignored is the 2 greatest commandments of Jesus (paraphrasing) Love God above all else, and your neighbors as yourself. I interpret that as live and let live.
Own your Christianity and live it to the best of your ability, and allow everyone else to do the same. Nowhere does Jesus encourage abuse, judgment or punishment. He preached love and social justice for all. He wanted his disciples to spread the Word, and if they came upon those who did not want to hear it or abide by it to shake the dust off their shoes and go to the next village (paraphrasing), he never said to impose judgment. How someone feels about me being with another woman is of no personal relevance to me, just as it is none of my business and of no personal relevance to another how I feel about their significant other or how they live (unless harm and abuse is occurring). It is sadly, however, of legal and civil relevance to me.
It is incredulous that my fellow Americans would allow, insist even, my civil rights to ever find their way onto a ballot. I as in what other instance would the general American public ever support legislation to block the civil liberties of any person or group, something they would never do against themselves? It is inconceivable and unjust that the religious have any power to force me to abide by the rules born of their religion, a religion whose practices of entitlement and bigotry I personally don’t believe in, especially when we in the LGBT community don’t demand that you own and live by our beliefs. Neither should Christians, Jews, and Muslims DEMAND that we own theirs.
We can both own our own beliefs, and really in the end, it is God who will judge and punish. Do the Christians who do condemn others really have such little faith in God that they won’t allow him to perform his function? Where is their compassion? I have decided to do my presentation on the subculture of LGBT, not because it is easier, but to encourage the desensitization process through exposure resulting in, hopefully, compassion through Christ. Thank you for letting me state my position. This website is now on my favorites list.
(ME)
February 16, 2010
I absolutely remember your words from that article. I hear your heart and empathize with you.
I don’t believe the problem is really bigotry, but insecurity. The struggle is about “what if” more than anything. “What if” homosexuals start coming to worship? How will we deal with this? We don’t want our children exposed to their behavior, and we will not allow such an overt sin to permeate our place of faith expression.
It may be that both sides have very little understanding of the other. Both want God to be pleased, and both have a different idea of how to accomplish that aim, so they simply ostracize the other. Those who live contrary to the Way of the Kingdom are expected to correct their erroneous ways, and if they don’t, then the congregation who accepts the prostitutes, the racists, the drug addicts, and the homosexuals fears that they will be left to witness the failure of their ministry.
Christianity is the Kingdom of the righteous whose lives have changed, no matter how powerful the sin that gripped them before meeting Christ. In some ways it’s like a military training camp where the recruits are expected to be marksman, but they are all apposed to firing a weapon. If the recruits refuse to learn to shoot, but continue to wear the uniform, the real purpose of the training has been voided, and the military branch has failed its goal.
If homosexuals, racists, and alcoholics come to meet Christ while continuing in their sin, then the true power of the Gospel has not been experienced. Also, unless a people can recognize what sin is and agree upon whether or not a particular behavior is sinful, then there will never be unity within that people as far as the Church is concerned.
The subject that we are discussing is not as simple as deciding whether murder or stealing is wrong, because homosexuality is not a matter of hurting another to gain one’s own desires. Instead, not to oversimplify, it is more like whether or not we should drink soda. Soda is destructive in many ways, yet it is acceptable in almost all cultures, even the Church. But should we drink it? If destroying the body is sinful, then the answer is [no], it is sinful. But homosexuality does not destroy; instead it allows people to love one another. [And] then there is the issue of the biblical stance on homosexuality, which tells us that we should not indulge. Until the Church begins to view homosexuality like soda, “It’s not the best thing for us, but drinking it is not like killing someone, so let’s just let people drink if they want”, there will continue to be the unfriendly debate.
In the end, I believe that we will find that drinking soda and homosexuality are both not what God planned for us to please ourselves with, but that will be God’s role to judge. With that said, it should also be our role to search the Scriptures to understand what God expects, no matter where it takes us.
We must be open to the idea that our behavior may not be pleasing to God, and then we must decide whether we want to please Him or not. If we do, then we must be willing to give up whatever we are asked, no matter how much we love whatever that is. Here lies the situation with the rich man who went away sad, because Jesus told him that he would have to sell all he had and give it to the poor in order to follow him (see Matthew 19:16-22).
Many of us will learn that we were unable to give up our treasure, and we will go away sad. And some of us will gladly put down our nets and follow him.
But that is up to each of us to decide, without judgment or prejudice [from each other].
Please know that you are loved.
May God richly bless you.
Johnny
(HER)
February 17, 2010
Hi Johnny,
I am not trying to offend, that is why I am so grateful to be able to have this open dialogue with you.
I think I told you that I am in college to obtain a Master’s degree with a major in Psychology and a minor in law. In doing research for the seemingly countless essays and reports I must write, I come across a lot of different theories. What follows is one or two I have come across, and I am just passing on. It gives me food for thought that’s all. In fact, that is how I came upon the Flocks Diner. There is the first time I’ve ever come across the theory that homosexual could be natures way of controlling the population. What I can add to that is, if true, I would assume that God is Nature, and what a gift to control the population using love, not abortion, hatred, murder or some sort of honor or otherwise justified killing, not through famine and disease, but through LOVE! Perhaps seemingly unnatural because it is so uncommon, but a totally Natural Gift from God! How creative. Yes, these theories give me much to think about, and I would hope it does the same for all.
I agree with you that the problem is insecurity and that bigotry is the symptom. The psychological perspective of Carl Jung was the first with a humanistic approach. He started as a student of Freud’s, but came to opposing conclusions; such as we are all born bi-sexual and are taught to choose heterosexuality; we are intrinsically good; aggression and sex are not his primary focus. Let’s for a second say that is true. If we are all born with the ability to love across gender and we are part of a belief system that is actively oppositional to that possibility with horrible consequences, then a defense mechanism could be to crush ‘loving across gender’ and make it a horrible, unacceptable thing that must never be acknowledged.
At a later point, I would like to tell you my story as you seem overwhelmingly compassionate enough, without thinking for one second I am asking you or you may have to own my beliefs. It is a harrowing tale filled with struggle, pain and rejection, the worst rejection being from me. Christianity is indeed the kingdom of the righteous and I swear to you Johnny, I feel righteous where I’m at, for myself, after my life’s experience (I’m 39 yo). As I’ve said before I really do believe I have a healthy relationship with God and Jesus, I know they love me no matter what, even if I am doing something they may not want. You wouldn’t believe what I love my kids through.
I feel like overcoming my denial of my orientation and at the same time believing that my Father in Heaven still loved me and believed in me was an place that Jesus would have me come to. What I really don’t understand is how ‘homosexuality’ became the awful social stigma that it is, given far more attention than the stealing or adultery, whose admonishments are actually written into stone by God Himself! Why such a big deal? Why is that the sole focus and why do people think it is ok to humiliate me or treat me like the child of Satan instead of God, deserving of nothing good? How is that more Christian than my love for another woman? We are all just people doing the best we can.
Loved your soda analogy and so did my 14 yo son! And again, thanks for letting me be honest and respectful. Thank you for letting God, who will take all into consideration, do the judging while we walk the path together for a bit.
(ME)
February 17, 1010
Hi again,
I really appreciate this conversation, and I am glad to hear from you again. Many people are reading our dialogue, and are being blessed by the gentle and peaceful nature of it. I have spoken with others who are dealing with homosexuality who have not at all been kind to me, assuming the worst because of my Christian identity. But I have prayed that God would give me the ability and opportunity to have such a conversation, and here we are.
It’s interesting that you have a son. I am wondering how this orientation of his mother is impacting him, but it’s really none of my business. I haven’t read enough or experienced enough of homosexual sociology and culture to really know the outcome of such things. I have no opinion, based on scientific knowledge of my own to speak of, but I know that God does love you as much as he loves me. And I know that God is powerful and can answer prayers.
I also know that God is a God of unimaginable grace and mercy as well.
I agree that there are many philosophical and psychological theories surrounding homosexuality, but I can’t imagine, for myself, being attracted to the same sex. Therefore it’s difficult for me to agree that, simply based on my upbringing, I chose to be attracted to the opposite sex.
For the Church (Christians) to learn how to welcome and love the homosexual as easily as the alcoholic, the bigot, and the divorced would be a wonderful witness of the power of God’s love. And I’m sure that if that kind of compassion was shown from those who are supposed to be “known by their love” that healing would come in powerful ways, even beyond our own expectations.
Keep praying and knowing that God hears you and cares for you.
In His dust,
Johnny
(HER)
February 18, 2010
Johnny,
I can appreciate being mistreated because of a label (mine just happens to be different than yours) and I am sorry for that, especially since you have what I would assum is a genuine Christian heart. I’m grateful that I did not let a sweeping generalization or label detract the conversation we are having.
Due to the nature of our conversation, I am OK with filling you in on my kids. I have 2, a 14 yo son and a 9 yo daughter. My son seems very well adjusted, he was 11 when I came out. He is on the local high school football team and has an active at school social life and sports life. I made the decision not to ‘out’ him, so in his interest I stayed in the closet around the games. HE outed me! He had some sort of a sense of pride and acceptance because he told everyone on the football team…I would have thought that would be a difficult crowd to be out to. However, they all still love me, mostly because I still feed them and cheer for them. Whether they think its gross, sinful, whatever…they are still able to love me and appreciate me because I am still who I am. With that, my assumption is that he is adjusting beautifully. I don’t believe that having an openly gay mom gives him greater propensity to be gay, just as your compassion towards LGBT does not make you attracted to men.
And I agree with you…when the Church begins to accept all, then the awesome Power and Love of God will be swept over the world. No one should be treated, especially by the Christian community, as anything less than a child of the Most High. I think when and if they ever change their acceptance policy that God will be more able to see His Plan for His Peace and Love to envelope the world, and those that had been living in ignorance, fear or superiority will be able to experience His love in ways they could never before comprehend.
Where exactly is this conversation being posted, I would love to take a peek.
(ME)
February 18, 2010
Hi. It’s posted at www.flocksdiner.com. I have to do some traveling today, so I don’t have time to fully respond right now.Thanks for writing again.I am being blessed by our converstation.
Johnny
(HER)
February 18, 2010
Drive safely during your travels today.
I am being blessed by our conversation as well, how could I not be? A Pastor and a Lesbian walking this path together with what I would call Christian love and compassion.
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